I have always been a spiritual person at heart, but it was knocking on my door very quietly. I was not sure what it really meant to be a spiritual person or explore spirituality. My real spiritual awakening started to happen when I stopped consuming animal products. My awareness began expanding and my consciousness became more heart-centered. From this new vibration, I was now able to consciously go out of my way to avoid ALL things that involved the exploitation of animals, including boycotting palm oil.
Within this shift, I began to feel real purpose in my life. My thoughts became clearer and I was questioning and observing my behaviours much more. Rather than being my behaviour, I would find myself asking questions like “Why did I say that?” “Why do I get drunk?” “Why do I care so much about this one little aspect of my life?” The foundations upon which I built my ideals were starting to crack. At this time, I was also not feeling particularly attached to any of my material belongings and I became very emotional and unable to deal with the slightest confrontations. I was also noticing a lot of synchronicity in my everyday life and I became more trusting in not knowing the future.
I started meditating often on the questions I would ask myself. If I was unable to meditate, I would take a few minutes to reflect or ‘zone out’ while thinking about these questions. By pushing all other thoughts out of my head, it allowed me to fully concentrate on what I needed to. I found that I was attaching emotions to these questions and not approaching them neutrally. I realized I had been revisiting past experiences and judging myself for how I handled them and therefore judging myself. Compassion to myself and others became a constant theme of my reflections.
In my view and from my personal experience, I refused to live a vegan lifestyle because I was refusing to look in the mirror and confront my addiction to animal products. Again, and I stress in my view, consuming animal products and using excuses like “I could never ever give it up” is not facing the addiction. Addiction by definition is “the fact or condition of being addicted to a particular substance, thing, or activity.” It was time to go sober!
‘You are what you eat’; Trees and plants communicate through a very sophisticated method of sharing nutrients and water through the soil. They can alert other trees to the dangers of drought, disease, and infestation of insects. This system is called the mycorrhizal system and is proof of the ever-present connection of consciousness beyond what the eye can see. When I decided to feed my body living plants, my mind and body became alive, gifting me with connectivity to all living things. This is instead of fear, panic, and sadness which is what all animals feel leading up to their execution.